It has been little over a year since my last blog post and a lot has changed. While scanning through my old blog posts I kind of cringed at my over-friendly tone in them and quite frankly, amateurish writing.
Of course, maybe people remember I have a blog, maybe people don't. What matters I guess is that so much has happened recently that I have to write it all down somewhere before I lose my mind, though I think I already have.
First on the agenda is why I'm back. It was a completely random suggestion made by Jess and when I thought about it, I went Oh gosh I really should've blogged more consistently. I mean, popular bloggers always update their blogs frequently so I almost got a heart attack when I came back here and found out my last entry was posted on 7th December 2013. Ah well, I guess I sort of forgot about the blog at one point.
Honest to God I swear that I really wanted to blog over the past year but like I said before, a lot has happened in this one year gap. Due to the amount of things and events that had occurred, this big entry to cover it all will be split into several parts, of which I hope to complete over the coming holidays.
The more interesting things that has happened to this mundane writer would be an OCIP (Overseas Community Involvement Project) trip to Cambodia, my revision on my outlook on school life, relationships with my friends and finally, home.
I'll only talk about school tonight. Lately I've been having a LOT of second thoughts in ever joining DTVM. Hold up, I was super excited to be in the course in the first year but second year has really whacked me hard in terms of reality checks. Think of it as something extremely heavy slowly running over you, crushing you to death and oozing out all your hopes and dreams.
The workload is super intense and of course, being a bad time manager, I've been having a lot of sleepless nights over the past year. On better nights, I can sleep latest 1 or 2am in the morning. Otherwise I usually sleep at around 3-4 before waking up at hmmm...6-7am in the morning.
I don't set alarms, I have a frustratingly early body clock which forces me awake by 7 latest everyday. I can't take advantage of my timetable this term because of that. While other class or coursemates would be sleeping in on the days we have 12 and 1pm classes, I would be wide awake by 7 am and cursing my body clock. Coupled together with the workload, I can finally understand just how tough my seniors have described year 2.
Personally, I think I have managed to piss off most of my lecturers in the course. Being a lousy student, who keeps asking Mr. Esman questions on how to do this and that (coding, I detest it), I would be able to see why Mr. Esman is done with me. Let me get this out; to everyone who can code good and gets it, you have my utmost respect.
Ms. Stella, enough said, it's a mutual dislike for one another, at least that's what I think. I don't know why but I just can't control my dislike towards Ms. Stella whenever I try to ask her a question or explain something more clearly during consultations. In terms of experience and knowledge, I believe Ms. Stella is a great lecturer in those two areas but her open emotions towards others and work attitude just...you get the idea.
I'm not sure about Mr. Chee Teng, because he kinda looks out of it. No, I'd say he tries not to let any of his opinions of the class show in front of us. Although perhaps with me being incompetent (I've learned a lot about pronunciation thanks to Jia Ying) in all aspects of filming, I might not be very high on Mr. Chee Teng's 'Nice List'.
I definitely know I've irritated Mr. Mark today (oh dear God) because I was late for the first time this term. On the last day of term too, what luck. I guess completing an assignment due today outweighs keeping my perfect attendance. Oh, the reason why Mr. Mark would be irritated at me is not because I was late; in actuality I had forgotten to apologize for being late. *sighs I apologize once again, Mr. Mark.
Ms. Mary, hmmm. I can deduce that her reason to not like me is the same reason for Mr. Esman's I guess. I can name quite a lot of incidents actually. One, being super blur, as usual. Two, having fallen into a deep sleep during her class and no one could wake me up. Three, being a bad student and not completing class assignments and at the top of the list, generally not cooperating and having bad ideas for her assignments. Long list but eh, Ms. Mary could've been better organized in coming up with her assignments for us in my opinion. Input your thoughts if you want.
Ah, our course head, Ms. Gamar. I genuinely don't want to disappoint her because journalism is the only possible option I can explore in DTVM, considering my abysmal filming and editing skills. However, my mediocre skills in doing up articles and failure to hand up class work on time would definitely annoy Ms. Gamar, and being a big part of being a reporter is meeting deadlines so....*draws line across neck.
Well, that's all I have for today, I multi-tasked a class assignment for Ms. Gamar while typing out this entry. I sent it off already before starting on this send-off. I'll be flying off to Penang for a week with the family tomorrow so perhaps I'll blog some more after that. Don't fret about the bad stuff, I'll clear all of those before moving on to the fun entries.
Keep safe everyone, have a good holidays (who am I kidding, try your best not to die!)
